God's Will

Verse for today:
God will always give what is right to his people who cry to him night and day, and he will not be slow to answer them. (Lk. 18:7 NCV)

The last few days have been difficult ones. I have spent a lot of time crying and in a funk. I have Praised God and the next thing I know, satan has robbed me of my joy again. I guess this is normal, I am not sure.

I have prayed a lot about the restoration and healing that God could bring to my marriage. When I read this verse today, I was encouraged once again, that He hears my cry and will answer me. Will it be the way I want? I am not sure. I know He gives us the desires of our heart, but I also know He looks out and cares for us in a way we cannot imagine. My marriage has not been the greatest in 22 years, that I know. There is a lot in me that needs to change, and a lot in my husband that needs to change. But are we both willing? I want what God's will is for my life, to be happy and whole. But I also want the good that we had in those 22 years back as well. I want my family back, whole and happy. We were the perfect picture of a family or so I thought, until satan took over. I am so angry with him. I am so mad that he slowly tore apart what was good, and what God had put together. I love my husband. I love him so much. I want that love to be restored. I am praying, and I know others are as well. But most of all I pray for peace. I pray that His will be done. That is hard, because I am not sure what the out come will be. Right now I am praying we could get counseling and remain seperated to work on our problems. I am praying for my children to find peace and not be affected by this anymore than they already are. Join me in prayer. I covet those prayers.