New Beginnings

I have never been much of a blogger. In fact this is probably my first real attempt. My life is suddenly full of changes. Its hard to imagine waking up one day after being married for 22 years and finding out my husband says its over. He never wants to look at me again. His words echo in my head as I recall the things he said intentionally to hurt me. Later that night, I was hurt, angry and out of control. I took a corner to fast, and ending up parking on a tree. The bad part is I dislocated my hip in the process spent the last 4 weeks in ICU and then Physical Therapy. I hurt. In the process I hurt others.

Its hard to comprehend or even let my head wrap around the thought of being on my own. I am hurt, I am sad, I am mad but most of all scared. I have never really been on my own. I know it can be done and I have genetic strength. I watched my oldest sister whom I have so much respect for, raise her two girls on her own. She is a strong woman. I have watched my mother survive breast cancer and other illnesses, and she is strong as well. She has been my rock through so many times in my life and I admire her and her relationship to the Lord. I have seen my other sister survive serious illness and made it through that. Strong again. And watching her realationship with God grow has been a huge blessing. A neice who has had many obstacles to overcome, including rape make it through. Again, we have strong genes in our family. There are aunts that come to mind, cousins that come to mind, friends that have all set the course for me to follow and to be strong. Emotionally I am very weak. I battle it everyday. But yesterday I woke with the Lord calling me to a New Beginning, so here I sit. I dont know where this blog will take me, other than expressing my thoughts and beginning to heal through it. I am by no means am an eloquent writer but bear with me as I share my thoughts.

My children mean the absolute world to me. I love them so much it hurts. I hate what this is putting them through. My prayer is they will dig deep and find the inner strength like so many of their family before them have done and they will be able to get through this time. My prayer is that I will be the example of strength to them that they will be encouraged and that when they see the Lord working in my life they too will turn back to Him.
Isaiah 43:18 "Forget the former things, do not dwell on the past " vs 19 says "See I am doing a new thing!....."

New Beginning.....will you pray for me as I begin this new chapter of my life. Pray all my needs are met. I have bills, lawyer fees, I need a new car desperately and one that is high enough to keep my hip from being out of hip precaution and risking dislocating it again. I will need a new home, furnishings, so many things, yet I know God WILL supply all my needs according to His riches in Glory. Pretty awesome thought, huh?

Share with who you chose. Reply and encourage me as I will need plenty! God be with you!